Well hello everyone! I hope everyones 2015 is going swell, totally did not realize how long it has actually been since i wrote a blog...wow it's been a long time. I am a bit sad I missed BaD...I actually forgot about it being in February but I forgot a lot of things during February because it was a seriously busy month for me. I'll remember for next year though!

Life since i wrote my last blog has changed a lot for the better. It has been very eventful as well.

First off thank you again everyone for the kind words on my situation I was going through, it was a very rough month of very bad anxiety and I just seriously went to a place I never thought I would go to. I was honestly driving myself crazy with the way I was thinking and I just didn't want to do anything. Work was my get away but it was just getting back home and then negativity just consumed me. Finally I just had enough and decided to start going to therapy because I was tired of being miserable and hating myself (which I have always had a negative image about myself) and I just wanted to be happy. I just couldn't do it on my own like I thought I would be able to do. I have also started eatting better, currently I am on weight watchers to help me diet better and exercising more as well, which I feel is helping and I have lost, since February 2nd, a total of 6.5lbs (could be more this coming Sunday though!) and I am so proud of myself for actually sticking with it. Granted I need to get back into the exercising since I am just getting over a cold, I was too miserable to work out for a week, but I am at least I get myself back into unlike the old me where I would never do that and be all meh eventually.

We also decided to work things out but I refused to go back to how things were and told him I want to start off as just boyfriend/girlfriend and if he wants to marry me he can repropose, but I am not going to wait forever for that to happen. Things between us have improved a lot, we're talking more, playing games together, watching movies, etc. When it starts to get nicer out were going to this race track in CT that opens in May which I am pumped about and we're planning a little vacation to get away for the summer. So it's just nice to see things getting better, and it could just be me that thinks things are better because I am trying to avoid that conversation about how he feels for now since it's only been a month and a few days of us being back together. 

Over all though I am happier with myself than I have ever been!

I have also been very busy planning my friends bridal shower which is coming along nicely, I cannot wait for it to be finished with in April though. Work was also super busy last month but it's a little slow right now; I honestly don't mind the break of only working on one project. Although I will say I can't wait to be done with the one I am on right now because I get micromanaged to the extreme and I get treated like everything I do is not correct. It's annoying but I tell myself I am doing what I am suppose to do and she can buzz off. Basically I am just gonna cc her on every email I send and give updates as soon as something happens but update her before requesting info. It's a furstraiting list of things I need to remember to do with this person so I don't get my head bit off. Other than that I love my job, it's been great.

In other news I have of course been gaming when I can. First game I beat for the new year was Super Mario Bros WiiU. I have also completed Shadow of Mordor, Dead Island, and 10,000,000. Currently I am working through Dead Island Riptide and planning to do a run through of the main Dragon Quest Series DQI - IX. I was bought as a late Birthday/Valentines gift the NES versions of 2,3,4 which I am so excited for and was not expecting. I love them so much more on the NES than off the GBC or DS. Granted I will be playing V and VI off the DS, but I would play them off the SNES in Japanese if I knew how to read Japanese since they are dirt cheap. So that's going to be an exciting thing! I am thinking of keeping a journal record while playing the DQ games to write a long series of where I am and such. I think it might be a pretty cool project.

I am also building my new computer! I got my awesome case in yesterday and buying my new motherboard tomorrow. Once that comes in I am gonna move everything into the new computer on the new motherboard and in April I am going to eventually buy a new CPU. I am planning to get an Intel 7 becasue I actually want to try Twitch streaming, or some sort of streaming. I do not want to do it for the money or populatiry but for the enjoyment of playing games and interacting with people. I think it'll be pretty fun, not easy, but fun none the less. I want to get capture cards as well to stream consoles so I don't have to use emulators. That's a little ways away my streaming days, but I know I'll have a computer that will be able to handle it once I get to that. Maybe I'll try YouTube first? Not sure yet but I know it's something that has become a growing interest of mine. I put a picture of my new case! I can change the LED lights on it with a button, but it reminded me of a retro R2D2.

I started new crafting things as well! I have a cross stich project in the works of the mario bro characters (photo below). I am almost done with Luigi, I haven't worked much on it. I recently finished a Latch Hook Panda and I still need to work on a Toad perler for my friend and I am going to make something else for him as well to ship them out in July for his birthday. These are just a few things I have going on, but more project may pop up know me!

I have been watching anime every now and then as well, trying to finish up some Fall and Winter animes still before the spring ones come out. Which I have to look into since I have no clue what animes are planning to be release for the Spring season! 

Which brings me to my final point: THANK GOODNESS SPRING IS PRACTICALLY HERE!!!!!!! I love Spring, it's my favorite season next to Fall. I have been waiting for the warmer weather and I am so ready to hit the beach within the next few days just to walk along it before it officially opens. Also Camping! I love camping and cannot wait to start that up with my friends this year!